So, if you haven't heard, I'm expecting my third child at the end of next June- wow- writing that out actually makes it seem more real. To be honest, I've had such mixed emotions about this whole pregnancy and often question it's reality- LOL! I guess it never truly sinks in until you hear that heartbeat (or at least that;s what seals the deal for me). I've always wanted 3 children, but was so hoping to wait until Little Man was more like 3 before conceiving again. I think I'm in shock really. I also kind of feel snotty for "complaining." Conceiving easily truthfully is a blessing that I know I should not take for granted. (I have yet to plan one of my pregnancies and at the risk of giving you TMI, let's just say that this one was also a "ONE-IN-A-MILLION" shot). "The fruit of the womb is a reward," right?
To be honest, I'm scared. I was just getting use to mothering two (yes it took me a full year to get there), and the thought of three is somewhat terrifying to me. I'm really hoping the old, "Transition from two to three is easy-peasy," is actually true. My children will be 3 1/2, 20 mths, and newborn- nothing sounds easy about that to me! But it is what it is, and I'm looking on the bright side of knowing that I won't have to put all the baby stuff away only to drag it all back out again. This is the last time I will have to get out the maternity clothes; the last time to endure the fatigue of the first trimester; the last time to wonder what kind of little person is growing inside me; my last labor; ok and so to be honest, the finality of it all also kind of saddens me...
So I apologize for the mishmash of thoughts and run-on sentences in the above post, but that's kind of where my brain is at this point in time... Prayers, good vibes, and thoughts are much appreciated!
WOW! I didn't hear! Congratulations! I am sure you will do fine. So happy for you.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness! No I did NOT hear or know you are expecting!! Congratulations my friend! You know, I had the same mixed emotions and I can see now how absolutely perfect the timing was! You will be a great mama to three! I hope you are feeling well and getting some energy- that first tri is so hard! Love and hugs, jess
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to have mixed emotions! Praying for you as you adjust!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! I am definitely praying that whatever is going on in your body right now is totally benign and that it will resolve itself by the time you get to the doc on Monday.
ReplyDeleteI have 5 little boys age 7, 5, almost 4, almost 2, and 7 weeks old. The space between all of them is 20 months, 20 months, 23.5 months, and 22 months, respectively. I had a miscarriage right before getting pregnant with my 5th son and I have to admit I really wasn't ready (emotionally) to get pregnant when I did. It wasn't until I was holding my squirming little bundle of baby boy that it actually felt real to me and I was able to realize that it was all going to be okay and he was just fine. I don't want to discourage you, but rather prepare you that the hardest transition for us WAS from 2 to 3 kids. I think it is because you and your spouse are finally outnumbered. The good news is that every transition after that has been easy-breezy, so if you decide to have any more... :)
I am definitely praying that all is well and come June you are going to be so tickled with your new little bundle that all the craziness will be worth it. :)